In my Forerunner School of Ministry practicum we are studying the sermon on the mount in Matthew 5-7 which is in essence, Jesus' character. More and more I am overwhelmed by His life, how can someone combat the human flesh in such a perfect way? In the end of chapter 5 Jesus says,"Therefore, you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect." He is basically saying that in keeping ALL of these things, you, your fleshly created being will be perfect as the Father of glory! WHOA!
New goal in life for me, to be perfect as my Father in heaven is perfect. What exactly does that look like? I can imagine it would manifest as ultimate humility, sincere meekness, hunger for righteousness and purity, wholehearted mercy, a pure heart and mind amidst persecution and slander and a lifelong zeal to see the kingdom of heaven invade earth.
Unattainable? In my own flesh. But, with a Holy Helper it is something to be grasped.
I think for me this pursuit needs to begin with a new perspective. In Matthew 7:1-2, Christ talks about judgement, the judgement we give will be the judgement we receive. I believe that even more than the judgement we receive from others, the greatest impact comes from the judgement we place on ourselves. When I judge my brothers and sisters in Christ, I often end up placing that same burden of judgement on myself creating wrong thoughts and beliefs about the heart of the Lord. This sends me into a spiral of self-condemnation, shame and ultimately lack of spiritual growth.
One of the areas I commonly judge is the realm of platform ministry. I have always placed such value and expectation on the stage, to the point of making it my ultimate goal. There is something about the platform that makes me think that only the best and the brightest make it to that point and in my weakness and immaturity I have pursued it as the ultimate level of being approved by the Lord. Could it be possible that the best and the brightest hold positions in the marketplace, as stay at home mom's and Jesus loving housewives as well as full time ministry?
This makes me consider my calling. I have always had a desire to impact the kingdom of God in the greatest way possible, in my mind I have always viewed that as leading hundreds of thousands of people in revival and serving the nations as the next Amy Carmichael. I believe the desires in my heart are God given and my true calling... What has the Lord placed as desires in my heart? Number one... to love well. I want to love Jesus with every ounce of my soul, mind, heart and body, with every cell of my being. Secondly... to love every single person He has blessed my life with. That doesn't mean just a little, "Hi, I'm Korynne, I love you." I want my heart to burn with the Lord's burden for people, I want to carry His heart for the guy that changes the oil on my car at Meineke and the girl waiting at the bus stop by my house when I leave for the prayer room at 6am. I want the fire of love that compels me to pray unceasingly for the lost in my generation. However that manifests in the flesh, it really doesn't matter, I could reach one or one million, my small-in-the-eyes-of-man-love will completely ravish His heart.
Father, instead of taking the post of judge in this life, reveal Your heart to me and help me to take the place of love and mercy, burning with zeal to see Your kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven. I ask Father for kingdom vision, for grace to pursue radical obedience, for faithfulness in love and for help in becoming the likeness of You. Jesus, take this weak lover of You and wash me, help me to love You well.
How I love You, how I love You, how I love You, how I love You, Jesus.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Powderpuff!
The two teams.... Daughters of Jerusalem (Pink) and the Royal Diadem's (purple), praying together...
Hike!!!
Kristi, Amanda and I!
Noelle, my friend from Spokane watching from the sidelines...
Our offense!
My roommate Andrea from New Orleans, myself and Noelle after the game!
I had so much fun!
Hike!!!
Kristi, Amanda and I!
Noelle, my friend from Spokane watching from the sidelines...
Our offense!
My roommate Andrea from New Orleans, myself and Noelle after the game!
I had so much fun!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Sisters...
Well... I've been contending for my little sister for about 6 years now to come to know the Lord with her life. We were best friends until I was 19, we did everything together. Due to family circumstances we have been disconnected since and it was a dream come true for her to come and share my life here in Kansas City. I had envisioned her getting captivated by the heart of Father God and I was prepared to disciple her into the Kingdom of God. She arrived during our Friday night Encounter God service just in time for the message. She was quiet and didn't seem to have any response to the service (which I expected because it was pretty mellow.)
I showed her around the city a bit before work on Saturday and we just had some hang out time.
I went to work Saturday night and I noticed I wasn't on the schedule past the following weekend, I talked to my boss and he said unless I was willing to quit school and commit more time at work, he would have to replace me. I completely understood and felt peace about it and went home.
I went to work early the next morning and left my sister sleeping in bed and after work she wasn't home. I went to football practice and finally got a hold of her on the way, she said she was on the internet at Starbucks and would see me later. After practice she called and said she needed to talk so we went out together to a quiet place and she said she was leaving, she couldn't stay here. She said that I live in a wicked, evil place and that my church is a cult. She spent 6 hours researching IHOP-KC as a cult on the internet and got a headful of information from the father of lies. Long story short, I asked her to give me some reasons for her belief that we could measure it with the word and she said that her feelings were enough. She said she sees demons all over me, all over my school and all over my house and she can't stay and neither should I.
We met again the next morning to try to iron things out, but I guess it's just not the Lord's timing for her. I'm trusting that what seems like a giant leap backwards in the area of her salvation is all part of the Lord's greater plan of redemption and restoration for my family.
My little sister is heading back to Washington state to re-unite with my mom.
My heart is disappointed, but at peace, I feel covered in prayer and bathed in the tender mercy and grace of the Lord.
Thank you for standing with me for my unsaved family! The Lord WILL prevail in His perfect timing!
I showed her around the city a bit before work on Saturday and we just had some hang out time.
I went to work Saturday night and I noticed I wasn't on the schedule past the following weekend, I talked to my boss and he said unless I was willing to quit school and commit more time at work, he would have to replace me. I completely understood and felt peace about it and went home.
I went to work early the next morning and left my sister sleeping in bed and after work she wasn't home. I went to football practice and finally got a hold of her on the way, she said she was on the internet at Starbucks and would see me later. After practice she called and said she needed to talk so we went out together to a quiet place and she said she was leaving, she couldn't stay here. She said that I live in a wicked, evil place and that my church is a cult. She spent 6 hours researching IHOP-KC as a cult on the internet and got a headful of information from the father of lies. Long story short, I asked her to give me some reasons for her belief that we could measure it with the word and she said that her feelings were enough. She said she sees demons all over me, all over my school and all over my house and she can't stay and neither should I.
We met again the next morning to try to iron things out, but I guess it's just not the Lord's timing for her. I'm trusting that what seems like a giant leap backwards in the area of her salvation is all part of the Lord's greater plan of redemption and restoration for my family.
My little sister is heading back to Washington state to re-unite with my mom.
My heart is disappointed, but at peace, I feel covered in prayer and bathed in the tender mercy and grace of the Lord.
Thank you for standing with me for my unsaved family! The Lord WILL prevail in His perfect timing!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
You must watch this!
This is a 700 club interview with a man from IHOP-KC who started a ministry to raise awareness and prayer to end human slavery....
Sunday, September 25, 2011
I feel like I've been hit by a train!
So... I worked from 9-3 and went straight to football practice, our coaches kicked our butts with exercises and running and pattern drills and... I played the runningback and quarterback today in our practice, I even got to blitz a few times. Aren't you impressed with my football lingo? I learned that all today. :)
We have a great team, I am pretty confident we are going to win the tourney in a few weeks... My body hurts sooooooo bad though!
We have a great team, I am pretty confident we are going to win the tourney in a few weeks... My body hurts sooooooo bad though!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Did I mention football?
I forgot the most intriguing part of my update! I have joined a women's football league (that's touch football for those of you entertaining thoughts of me bare-knuckle-boxing poor unsuspecting victims.) My body feels like I got hit by a train after my first 2 hour practice and I feel much like Forrest Gump probably felt when he first started to play the game with really confusing rules. Once I understand the point of the game I'm sure I'll get it all ironed out but in the meantime I've had to resort to asking which direction I need to run and who to stop. Anyways, it's fun and it's exercise and have you ever known me to pass up an opportunity for some healthy competition? :) More to come!
September update...
Hi friends!
Since many people haven't been receiving my updates from my other e-mail, I've decided to send this update from my school e-mail. I do hope it works!
Thank you so much for the prayer and encouragement! I have definitely felt the grace and mercy of the Lord these past few weeks amidst the craziness and being utterly buried in commitments and homework. Praise God!
Jesus is so good!
This semester is in full swing! I have a 20 page exegesical paper due here pretty soon and I am learning a TON about studying and applying the word! In my hermeneutics class I am learning how come to a passage with an open mind/heart, rid myself of as much pre-supposition as possible, study the passage in greek and hebrew, then do a full study on each word in the passage (each word takes about 3 days), incorporate any cultural, political information I can find as well as what was going on in the lives of the intended readers at the time, discover any parallel's found in the rest of the bible and then and only then make my interpretation and conclusions based on my findings. It is really difficult, but at the same time extremely fascinating. I feel like the scriptures are opening up in a whole new way for me! I am blown away by how much I have improperly interpreted and applied scripture in my life!
My little sister should be moving in with me this week if everything goes as planned! It has been a long 3 months of prayer and waiting for her to arrive, the end is in sight, she gave her notice at her work 2 weeks ago on Sunday and she is training her replacement as we speak. In the meantime I have re-organized my bedroom and life to make way for another person! The Lord has been giving me dreams about her, I could use some prayer for her heart to be open to the Lord and also to my speaking into her life. Our background has been rocky and I'm afraid her opinion of me isn't that wonderful. I so want to see her encounter the Lord while she is here and I don't want any past hurts to hinder that.
I love you all very much! I am working on getting some pictures of my school and my life in Kansas City to upload on my blog. I'm working on that in my "extra" time. :)
Since many people haven't been receiving my updates from my other e-mail, I've decided to send this update from my school e-mail. I do hope it works!
Thank you so much for the prayer and encouragement! I have definitely felt the grace and mercy of the Lord these past few weeks amidst the craziness and being utterly buried in commitments and homework. Praise God!
Jesus is so good!
This semester is in full swing! I have a 20 page exegesical paper due here pretty soon and I am learning a TON about studying and applying the word! In my hermeneutics class I am learning how come to a passage with an open mind/heart, rid myself of as much pre-supposition as possible, study the passage in greek and hebrew, then do a full study on each word in the passage (each word takes about 3 days), incorporate any cultural, political information I can find as well as what was going on in the lives of the intended readers at the time, discover any parallel's found in the rest of the bible and then and only then make my interpretation and conclusions based on my findings. It is really difficult, but at the same time extremely fascinating. I feel like the scriptures are opening up in a whole new way for me! I am blown away by how much I have improperly interpreted and applied scripture in my life!
My little sister should be moving in with me this week if everything goes as planned! It has been a long 3 months of prayer and waiting for her to arrive, the end is in sight, she gave her notice at her work 2 weeks ago on Sunday and she is training her replacement as we speak. In the meantime I have re-organized my bedroom and life to make way for another person! The Lord has been giving me dreams about her, I could use some prayer for her heart to be open to the Lord and also to my speaking into her life. Our background has been rocky and I'm afraid her opinion of me isn't that wonderful. I so want to see her encounter the Lord while she is here and I don't want any past hurts to hinder that.
I love you all very much! I am working on getting some pictures of my school and my life in Kansas City to upload on my blog. I'm working on that in my "extra" time. :)
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