As my winter break comes to a close, I am looking forward to the upcoming semester and a visit from a very dear friend!
I have spent the past few weeks getting some much needed rest and discovering the hidden gems of Kansas City. It has been so warm here for January, some of my international friends and I even got to enjoy a picnic at the Swope monument overlooking the Kansas City zoo. We were overwhelmed by the breathtaking view and the Lord's magnificence as we saw the sun set from the hilltop! I wish I had pictures! I even had my camera, but we were so caught up in the wonder of it all, singing worship songs from atop a brick wall that I didn't think to take pictures! Oh well!
Next week starts with a new semester and ends with a long awaited visit from Amanda Potter! It will be so fun to share life with her for a week!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
He is HOLY....
I was back home in Walla Walla at Life church on Sunday, it was so wonderful to be back in my home community! Due to my choices and some circumstances, I left my church with so much pain in my heart. I never thought it would be possible for me to be able to attend there again, feel safe and receive. For the year and a half prior to my move I would attend church every Sunday carrying this dreadful, larger-than-life burden filled with pain, hopelessness, fear, rejection, self-protection, condemnation and insecurity. It is amazing how much healing the Lord has done in my heart this year. I wouldn't have known about it had I not gone back. I am so grateful for His mercy and His grace! He is so good!
During worship there was such a sweet, healing presence. We were singing the song "Show Me Your Glory" by Jesus Culture.
I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder,
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong
Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus
I couldn't even sing the words, the weight of what was being sung completely overwhelmed me. Who am I to ask the Lord to show me His glory? I'm not afraid??? Lie! My heart is so dark, if I was to be faced by the fullness of His glory I might end up like Ananias and Sapphira! How can I come face to face with the God of perfection with such a sin-prone heart? Let alone ask Him to show me His glory!
The Lord began to tenderly reveal His truth to my heart as the music continued. His greatest desire is for me to be with Him where He is. (John 17:24) He actually longs for me to hunger for His glory, He wants so badly to pour out His presence, His mercy and His grace, but I have to want it, I have to ask for it. It must be a voluntary pursuit. He waits for me to ask and He delights in revealing Himself to me in my present state, even in my darkness I am lovely to Him. My desire for Him completely ravishes His heart.
With jubilance and gratefulness, I tearfully joined in the chorus with the rest of my church. I was utterly overcome by the mercy of our God, overwhelmed by His unconditional love and His desire for my heart to be His. I long to look on the face of the One that I love, long to stay in His presence, it is where I belong and it is where He desires for me to be!
I am going to keep on asking in my weakness, in my failure, in my inability to do things right for Him to show me His glory. It's His glory that teaches me the fear of the Lord and in His mighty jealousy, He removes all the things that hinder love.
He is so merciful in His desire for us. He keeps His tender heart open and willing, ready for us, anticipating the moment when we are ready to ask for Him to come to us. He keeps His heart and His hands outstretched, offering the free gifts of love, grace, mercy and salvation for whenever WE are ready to receive them. Thank You Father for not giving up on me, You alone are worthy of all honor, all glory and all praise!
During worship there was such a sweet, healing presence. We were singing the song "Show Me Your Glory" by Jesus Culture.
I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder,
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong
Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus
I couldn't even sing the words, the weight of what was being sung completely overwhelmed me. Who am I to ask the Lord to show me His glory? I'm not afraid??? Lie! My heart is so dark, if I was to be faced by the fullness of His glory I might end up like Ananias and Sapphira! How can I come face to face with the God of perfection with such a sin-prone heart? Let alone ask Him to show me His glory!
The Lord began to tenderly reveal His truth to my heart as the music continued. His greatest desire is for me to be with Him where He is. (John 17:24) He actually longs for me to hunger for His glory, He wants so badly to pour out His presence, His mercy and His grace, but I have to want it, I have to ask for it. It must be a voluntary pursuit. He waits for me to ask and He delights in revealing Himself to me in my present state, even in my darkness I am lovely to Him. My desire for Him completely ravishes His heart.
With jubilance and gratefulness, I tearfully joined in the chorus with the rest of my church. I was utterly overcome by the mercy of our God, overwhelmed by His unconditional love and His desire for my heart to be His. I long to look on the face of the One that I love, long to stay in His presence, it is where I belong and it is where He desires for me to be!
I am going to keep on asking in my weakness, in my failure, in my inability to do things right for Him to show me His glory. It's His glory that teaches me the fear of the Lord and in His mighty jealousy, He removes all the things that hinder love.
He is so merciful in His desire for us. He keeps His tender heart open and willing, ready for us, anticipating the moment when we are ready to ask for Him to come to us. He keeps His heart and His hands outstretched, offering the free gifts of love, grace, mercy and salvation for whenever WE are ready to receive them. Thank You Father for not giving up on me, You alone are worthy of all honor, all glory and all praise!
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