Why am I still here!?

I finished school here in May. Or did I? Why am I still here!?

I have no idea why, but I have had the hardest time letting this semester start without me being in class. All summer I have been wrestling with the should I or shouldn't I's of continuing school and it seems that every time I make a decision, I start all over at the beginning of the wrestle.

IHOPU re-adjourns on Monday and this week the battle that has been raging in my mind was set on jet-speed. I don't know why I haven't been able to have peace in letting it go. At the same time, I have been coveting my free time like a chipmunk storing up nuts for the winter. After spending the last two years with no free seconds to rub together hardly, I was more than ready to be done in May. Burnt out.

I really have no reason to go to school other than the fact that it would be a great opportunity to continue growing in the word in ways that I can't on my own. Not to mention that it is convenient that all of my friends are continuing and I would feel like I've been left in the dust with no legitimate reason to quit.

Needless to say, I haven't slept all week and school starts in about 36 hours. :/

JESUS!!!!!